This is Incredibly embarrassing for me as a man(M21) and as a person that wants to be able to satisfy my partner to the fullest extent however I feel that I can express myself in this sub.
I have been with this girl(F23) over the course of a year however I’ve only really been romantically involved with her for ~1 month.
We very recently had sex for the first time and for the first time I had trouble orgasming and getting hard in general. I don’t mind not having received satisfaction as my entire goal is to make sure that she’s able to get one first before I do. I went at it for about 10-15 minutes and I just couldn’t finish and I started panicking. I really like her emotionally and as a person and of course I find her extremely sexually attractive. Everything that she does feels incredible and is very experienced compared to me and vice versa. However in the end I just can’t stay up. I get an erection initially but then I lose it and I have to work towards it again. I’m tired of apologizing to her because it seems like I don’t like her or that I’m not attracted to her.
For added context in a previous relationship my ex partner belittled me and towards the end I feel as if sex was ruined for me and that I was traumatized from it. I was also addicted to porn for a time and I know that has adverse affects when it comes to performance. I’m no longer addicted to it however I still consume every couple of days or so and I’m still working on eliminating it as a whole.
I’m looking for advice anything would help. I don’t want to ruin this relationship due to my lacking performance and I need to improve if I want my mental health to recover