This is just a vent. Feel free to ignore it.
Sunday before last, I broke up with my boyfriend of 11 months, I'll be calling him S in this post. In that 11 months, S and I held hands twice, hugged once, and never kissed or did anything more than that. Along with that, we just have a lot of issues going on in our lives that led up to my decision to break up with him. We've been friends for 7 years, and I've been in love with him for 4 of those, but I just couldn't subject myself to any more of the pain that came with being with him.
I've been coping, sort of. We still live together due to both of us being in bad financial situations, and it's been mostly fine besides me occasionally getting really frustrated with him a lot easier than before.
Here comes the big issue though. The Tuesday after we broke up, his ex-boyfriend (I'll be calling him C) from about 3 years ago reached out to S again. C moved away a while ago and joined the military, so they haven't been in touch. However, C is back in town and wants to reconnect. S and C are meeting up with a few of C's friends from high school in about half an hour.
I'm freaking out. S dressed very nicely, put on cologne, did his hair super neat, the whole nine yards. He looks amazing, honestly. I really think that he and C will be getting back together. They've been texting non-stop. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel. I broke up with S, I feel like I have no right to be so tore up over this.
I guess what I'm trying to get advice on is just asking how to get over this? Or at least how to not worry myself into a panic attack tonight.