I (m30) am seeing someone (m40) and we may have something serious in the future ahead.
I grew up with a lot of traumas during my childhood and they are still affecting my present. I am the sort of guy who bottles up emotions about the fear of abandonment, low self esteem, need for physical contact etc. to not reflect it to the other person. It is extremely difficult sometimes for me to hinder my feelings and pretend okay, but I am used to acting up.
Thinking about future, I am so torn. I think I need to bring it up at some point, but when is the right time? Before things get serious might look too dramatic, after things get serious would make me feel anxious because I am worried he'd be distant after that, and some months after the relationship might probably the best option but then again I don't want him to feel like he is with the wrong person after I let my guard down all the way by that point.