I’ll try to make this short but to understand I must give a little bit of backstory so to the kind stranger that is about to read this and hopefully give me advice I truly thank you from the bottom of my heart as I can solve it for the life of me.
I’m currently a sophomore in college junior year of hs is when I met her in one my classes, we immediately hit it off constantly talking laughing and having a great time, texting all day, ft, etc. We finally start hanging out and we hang a ton every second of every day, school lunch, after school etc. So I began to develop feelings because I had never had a girl want to be around me so much, but I’ve had bad anxiety around them when it comes to making moves. So i kept it a secret.
At the end of my junior year is when I guess I learned she didn’t like me as she hooked up with another boy all summer, but even the we still hung out everyday. Although I was already in love with her by this time so I kept my hope. Over the next years we still hung out not that much her freshmen year of college tho, but then I thought she liked me cause we went to a concert and she asked me to put her arm around her, and took photos with her head touching mine and both her arms around me.
Then my summer leading to my freshmen year of college and her sophomore year we genuinely hung out every day again and once more the hope grew but still nothing and yet again did I not say anything, and this point it’s killing me watching her get with other boys kills me so bad inside and the boy I talked about last summer I would cry myself to sleep because I wanted her so bad and it wasn’t me.
Now that you get the idea and to make this shorter flash forward to this year my sophomore year of college I ended up transferring to the college she went to (it WAS NOT for her, and we also hung out all of our college years cause we both went instate I just transferred to the neighboring college also hers) we start hanging out again I thought I was over her but nope so finally I tell her, she was sobbing when I did, told her I was in love her and it’s been hurting me, we agree to set boundaries that would soon be broken and I thought telling her changed things but not really the hope is still there and the pain, but I really like her as a friend so i’m not gonna drop her especially since we’re so close.
Then today I was at her house and she was talking to one of her new guy friends all night instead of me it almost felt like she was avoiding me. So my mind starts to race does she like him? is he replacing me ? why won’t she talk to me ? does she like him ?
I hate those thoughts they don’t go away but I wanna be her friend I really do, what can I do next to make myself feel better but also continue the friendship? Any advice at all is greatly appreciated