38M here wondering if someone has figured out how to be content solo? Because honestly it's pretty exhausting and I say that as someone that has been in love multiple times with very beautiful, successful and lovely women. Gone on hundreds and hundreds of dates. Slept with numerous people. Flings, short term lovers, grandiose disney love. Filthy smutty situationships and everything in-between.
It's all never enough. I can think back fondly to so much of it. I wouldn't take away any of it, even the ones that ended tragically… But dear lordy. Where does it actually end? Because it just seems like the need to not be alone is just an endless chasm.
Have a wide and diverse friendship circle. Plenty of people love me but it's not the same… Plenty of hobbies and distractions… But it's not the same.
And what? One day I'll be 60 looking haggard with exactly the same needs? Oh god.