Feeling unsure of relationship 33F 30M
Him 30M
Me 33F
Relationship length 7 years
I have been thinking about moving out and leaving my fiance.
I just don't feel happy but I keep changing my mind like some days I want to leave and some days I'm like ok he's not that bad maybe I'm just crazy.
He's always in a bad mood and he just says it's because his job stresses him out. He's always telling me I don't give him any love or affection or sex. But I don't like doing that stuff when he asks for it because I feel like he's forcing me if he asks, I only enjoy it when I offer it myself without being asked which I'll admit is rare….
Sometimes when I go to work and I get home he asks me who I was cheating on him with. He forced me to cut contact with my ex that I wanted to stay friends with in the beginning. He used to get mad at me for doing anything without him and would accuse me of cheating on him but he doesn't do it as much anymore since I threatened to leave him if he didn't stop..
Anytime I go anywhere I have to explain to him who I'm going with and where I'm going. Even when I go to the water park with my MOTHER he would ask me if I got anybodys number while I was there and if anyone tried to talk to me.
The first time I tried to leave him 7 years ago he would drive past my apartment to see if my exs car was there and would blow up my phone and he told me he was driving past my ex's house too looking for my car.
I've tried to break up a lot of times but every time he knows I'm getting ready to leave he turns into the nicest most helpful caring man ever and starts helping me around the house without me even asking…. Then a few weeks later he goes back to being irritable and quiet and not helping with anything.
Our house is a disaster and completely disgusting because I got tired of doing everything and I just can't do it anymore.
When I try to ask him to help with stuff he says "well I work all day I don't have time" and when I try to explain to him that I work full time too he says "yeah but your job is so much easier than mine, all you're doing is dropping off packages in your car and you work for 3 or 4 hours and then come home and take a break and then maybe work for 3 or 4 more hours later, I'm at work allllll day for 10 hours straight"
I started looking at apartments a week ago and I was planning on moving out within the month but last night we slept together and it just made me more confused and last night I felt like ok I do like him I can stay…. And then this morning I woke up feeling icky and sick again.
The past 2 weeks I've barely had any appetite, I always feel nauseous and I keep having diarrhea. Do people just feel like that when it's time to break up? Like I feel physically ill and I do have some coexisting health problems so idk if it's that or if I'm feeling so sick because maybe I do want to break up?
Tl;Dr relationship has been rocky, he has shown some red flags, feeling physically ill the last 2 weeks….