I’ve been with my partner for a year and a half. I love him, and I want him in my future and there’s no doubt about that.
But lately, things between us feel heavy. There are so many things that happened that we never really fixed. When we argue, it becomes intense and painful. I’ve hit him before, and I hate myself for that. He’s said things that hurt me too, and I’ve done the same.
Now, I feel torn. Leaving him hurts, but staying hurts too. Even looking at him feels painful sometimes. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I’ve already lost him, even though we’re still together.
TL;DR: I love my partner, but our relationship has become painful. I don’t know if staying or leaving will hurt less.