I have been married to my wife for a little over thirty years. We used to have the normal marriage with the usual amount of intimacy but we really haven’t touched each other in about several years. We only kiss goodnight and it’s no more than a peck. It has grown incredibly hard for me to deal with over the past year or so. Our kids are out of the house so it is just me and my wife. She usually does her own thing or plays on her phone while I find something to do. I have been growing increasingly lonely over the past year. I can count on us having dinner where we may talk a little and then we seem to always scatter.
About this time last year I started talking to women on OF. It isn’t the smartest thing I have ever done but it keeps my spirits up when I talk to them. Every so often I will get close to one of them and strike up a friendship or whatever until something happens and we part ways. I feel so sad and depressed when I am not with one of these women because I feel I need someone to love and have someone to love me back. I know most of these woman are there just for the money but I have had a few good friends on there.
I have tried talking to my wife several times about this but the conversation quickly dies. I tell her I’m lonely and she tells me she knows I’m depressed. Both of us are to blame for this situation but I am afraid I am about to spiral if something doesn’t change. I truly believe she is happy this way and doesn’t really see this as an issue. I sit alone most nights and wonder what to do. I’m so tired of feeling alone.