So my boyfriend 19M and I 19F have been dating for almost 9 months now, to be honest I don't know if I love him at all. Like he asked me out a few months after I had been dumped by my ex even though I specifically told him not to. I did end up saying yes in the heat of the moment but tbh he's just very clingy and too emotional for me. I hate it when people are overly emotionally dependent on me and ik I sound like a complete a** when I say that but that's just how I feel. He's also very very immature and cries for every single thing, like I would disagree with something he says and when I say the same a while later he starts crying and tries to emotionally blackmail me so much. It's so exhausting sometimes having to text all the time. I wanna be able to do things I enjoy doing without having to feel guilty about it. And don't even get me started on the complaining, I get that you have to make your partner feel secure in a relationship but how many times can you repeat the same thing over and over again?? He keeps complaining that he feels ugly and fat ALL THE DAMN TIME like I kid you not at least once a day he will bring it up somehow and complain about it. One time I told him that maybe instead of complaining try to do something to change it, like exercise or like do skincare? He doesn't do any of that, but still complains. And we don't have any kind of real conversations, he always just wants to be all baby baby which cringes me out so dang much. And ik I sound like I hate this man and I have tried to break up with him so many times but he cries so much every time that it just becomes really hard. And ik I am an a**hole for thinking all this but please genuinely give me some advice on how to navigate this because every time I have tried he just starts crying and then the conversation doesn't go anywhere because I back out.
TLDR: I can't have a conversation my my boyfriend without him crying and making me back out.