I have no social life and I'm 30+ now and I want to change it. But I also feel unlike other people or weird.
I live with my parents still, in my 20s I didn't really go out, didn't work most of the time and had (still have some) a lot of fears and anxieties.
Now I'm in online school for prerequisites for a bachelor's degree I thought I wanted but I'm not sure I'm passionate about it and I have a part time job the past year where I see people (possible friends? 🥺) and I also petsit sometimes because I love animals and it's extra money.
But long story short I don't know how to open up and seem like a "fun" person when I feel kind of directionless.
I know with other people I wouldn't harshly judge them for feeling lost or not being successful by society's standards but I've always harshly judged myself and felt behind so I isolated myself. How do I portray a positive personality and make people want to get close to me?
Typical small talk questions scare me for example –
1) Favorite food question: I don't really have a favorite food and I get gut issues or think about the ethics of food so not the best relationship with food
2) Are you in school question: Don't have a clear direction of school still and spent my 20s taking online classes to get random AA degree and a career certificate I haven't ended up using (it just sounds bad and boring)
3) Are you married or have kids: No never even had a partner, feel weird lol
4) Hobbies: Take care of pets, go on computer (good solo past time for me), Watch TV, paint sometimes at classes, walks sometimes, make YouTube videos but I like being anonymous on there, (Basically I feel like I'm boring)
I just want some relationships man even some numbers people I can text to say hi