I have been dating my boyfriend for a year, and he is really lovely! However, on the rare occasion he goes out drinking with his friends, I always get a sick feeling in my stomach and am just uncomfortable thinking about it.
Don't get me wrong- I love partying! I go to my friends' for birthdays and drink there, but I am always aware of how much I'm drinking and never get very drunk. I don't even really…enjoy? Being drunk that much so I don't do it often.
I think the reason I get such a bad feeling when my boyfriend goes out drinking is due to issues from my past, as my Dad had some serious anger issues, and a lot of his outbursts came when he was either drinking or hungover. My boyfriend is very sweet-natured, and I'm not really worried he will do anything bad, but due to this link with my father, I still just feel very anxious. Due to this anxiousness, I tend to try to take my mind off it and do other things, but to do this, I don't like messaging him when he is out, but he obviously gets sad when I don't message him for the hours he is out drinking.
He does know about the issue I have when he's drinking and why, but I feel it is an issue I need to sort out myself, as he is doing nothing wrong, but I just don't know how to get rid of the anxiousness I get. Advice?