I don’t know why I feel like this, but recently I’ve felt like I’ve just been completely out of touch with my friend groups. In my older friend group (I’ve known most of them for around a decade) I‘ve begun to feel like I just make a fool out of myself, not being as smart as the rest of them, or feeling like the stuff they know things about are “more important“ than what I know.
Meanwhile I’ve also recently joined a new friend group, but for some reason I just don’t feel a sense of connection with them. I never know what to talk about. I feel like I know nothing about them, even though I’ve known them for a couple months now, and are willing to share so much with me, but for some reason I just can’t get that connection to feel two sided with them. Whenever we have a group hangout I just constantly keep to myself, only really talking to the one member of the friend group I’ve known for years.
Meanwhile I’ve also been trying to make friends with another group of people, but I feel out of the loop now in the opposite way. Like everyone else is growing in their bond while I’m just watching from the sidelines. But I already have other friend groups. How does my brain trick me into wanting to make a new group of friends to connect with, meanwhile I have two whole other groups that I consider to be close friends, but also feel so out of touch with?
I doubt any of these groups are trying to make me feel this way on purpose. I just don’t really understand why my brain won’t let me connect with others. Sorry if this is worded confusingly.