Lately I’ve just been trying to be more confident. I got sick of overthinking everything and feeling like I had to stay quiet all the time. Kind of embarrassing, but I started copying Liam Gallagher a bit. Not like fully acting like him, just picking up the way he walks and carries himself, like he doesn’t care what anyone thinks. It’s actually helped a little.
But even with that, I still feel like I’m faking it most of the time. Last year I wasn’t in a great place. Kept to myself, didn’t really speak up, and honestly just felt like a bit of a loser. And even now, there’s still a part of me that feels like that person. Like deep down, I’ll always be a bit fragile, and this version of me that I’m trying to build won’t stick. Like eventually I’ll slip back into being awkward and anxious again.
I don’t want to stay like that though. I want to actually feel comfortable in my own skin. I want to stop feeling weird in social situations, stop overthinking everything I say, stop letting anxiety run the show. I don’t know exactly how to do it yet, but I know I’m tired of pretending and just want to figure out how to actually be that confident version of myself for real