Just like the title says—I dont think anyone actually likes me.
I am a 17-year-old female. I am a senior in high school. I have two "friends", but I dont think they actually like me. I think they just feel sorry for me, that's why they hang out with me. Neither of them asks to see me; I'm always the one asking them. Today, we were at person A's house. They started talking about a party they're going to. One of their mutual friends is throwing it. I am not friends with that person, so I'm not invited. I can see why, but why do they have to talk about the party in front of me? It just seems shitty.
I dont have anyone else because the people at school already have established friends. No one wants someone new, unlesthey'rere new to the school or pretty. I'm neither; I'm ugly and have been here since freshman year. I try so hard to talk to people, but they just ignore me or talk to me until class ends and never talk to me again. I dont understand what I'm doing wrong. I'm autistic, so maybe that is why? I just want friends. I've never had real friends, I've never had a relationship. I feel like I am falling behind. I just want to be normal. How do I act like other people?