23M I don't know if this has a name beyond just "immaturity" but it's not just that I'm irresponsable or anything like that, there's a sense in which when I try to talk to people my age or even younger than me, I feel like a child talking to adults. The same feeling you got when you were little and your older brothers and sisters were talking together except for me it's like that with everyone.
For context, I've been a hikikomori for about two years and I haven't had friends since I was 14. My adolescence was completely devoid of any social life whatsoever. I just went to school and then came back home everyday. I went to the equivalent of college for a while (physics and chemistry) but dropped out.
I have very different concerns from other people my age. They talk about their love life, their work, people they meet at parties… I only think about movies and video games, as well as very abstract philosophical problems.
It's not that I don't want to get a job, but I've never done anything like this before. Beyond school, I know absolutely nothing about life. You can explain to me how to look for a job but it's like trying to explain to your dog how to fill up a statement of income. I wish I could help but I just don't understand anything…
My problem is that I can't be "normal". Like there's something off about me. People never confide to me about their problems, they always have a façade. I don't talk like other people, I don't have the same gestures or the same stance as other people. I don't really know how to explain it. Does anyone know what's going on?
Pls help, I feel very depressed and desperate. I'm wondering if the 4 walls of my room, anime and video games are all that life has to offer to someone like me…