I really crave friendships where I can feel that spark yk, where we can chat for hours and not get bored, where we share the same interests and idk just vibe and connect.
I have been on different apps and have talked to some people but it never works out long term because the conversation dies out and no one really starts a conversation again. And also because it's so boring. Like I am sorry but it's just basic questions and stuff, the atmosphere feels awkward etc.
And the thing is when I am with people like that I feel so exhausted afterwards – happens in real life too – because I will be social, I will ask questions, be fun etc. but it feels like I'm forcing it. When I am with people that I feel comfortable around, I don't get exhausted.
Worst thing is I do want friendship and these connections but it never works out.