I know this is another "I don't have friends" post on this sub but hear me out. I'm in 4th year and graduating in 6 months, and I actually do have friends, but none of whom I consider "close". And what I mean by that is, the friends I do have (and tbh it's only like 3 of them) are mainly "academic friends" where we mainly just see each other in the lecture and library and that's it; hell, I can literally count on one hand how many times we stepped out of campus together and even then it was mainly to walk to eat at a restaurant 5 minutes away. It sounds so pathetic, I know.
But whenever I tried to ask them to genuinely hang out with me, say, on a Friday night, to go to the mall together, or take the train to go to downtown Toronto together those ideas were always shot down. Not because they didn't want to do those things, but simply they just wanted to do it with their childhood friends or high school friends. Every single time. They view me as a lesser priority and that's okay.
Unfortunately, I literally have no one to do those activities with (go to the mall, or concert, etc.) because I have no childhood friends and no high school friends. High school was a very miserable time for me, as I was ostracized and bullied by some of my elementary school classmates in grades 9 and 10, and then the pandemic happened halfway through grade 10. Then when we came back in-person in grade 12 my social skills were ruined. So when I first came to university I had sought to find a best friend or two who I'd consider my ride and die, where we were genuinely close, and who I could spend a lot of time with outside of school. But that never happened.
Now when I graduate I'll literally have no one to hang out with on the weekends or do those fun night activities every young adult does. No friends from high school, nor university to have fun with. I guess this was my destiny. And it seems like I'm the only one with this issue😔