Hi! So I am 25f and have been trying to date since early last year. I just realized something, I’ve met a couple of nice men that was really nice to me and was perfect in the beginning. But the problems arise when I get so attached and anxious that I get so upset with no communication from them or like decline in communication and I discuss that with them. And then eventually, the relationship ends.
Recently I was dating a guy for 1 month, he took me out on dates, was sweet and thoughtful, consistent communication. Then I got so anxious in the recent week and was observing that there is a decline in communication. For context, we were calling consistently in the evening for the past week for like 1-2 hours , then the week after he texted but said he was busy and need to go somewhere that’s why we only did a phone call for a few minutes. This is for few days. Then the most recent is when he told me he will call me back after my class, and he didn’t so I decided to call him and he wasn’t picking up nor texting something. Then I messaged him about the problem but was upset that I removed him from my IG (I thought he ghosted me) then I went to sleep. Woke up with his messaged saying he was talking to his parents and asking why I removed him from my ig. And try to lie and say it’s an IG issue to not escalate the problem. Then he was upset that I lied about something small and mentioned that I am controlling, I tried to work things out and apologize after. But he ended it with me. This is the 2nd time something like this happened to me, and I’m always trying to ch angle and learn from it. I’m just really sad as I like him a lot and we vibe a lot. He’s even the first one who asked about being exclusive.
I thought I healed but every time I start dating someone, it’s like I become a different version of myself and I hate it. It’s like I find good guys and they like me but after a few weeks, I get very anxious and mess things up. Why am I like this.