I’ve only been intimate with two people in my life. The first time was when I was 16W, and he was 24M. We weren’t in a relationship, it just happened once, but the memory of that experience has stayed with me ever since. My family stepped in and stopped it from going further, and I understand why, given the age difference and how young I was.
I’m 28 now, and even though I’ve grown and changed so much, I still feel this strange pull toward him. It’s not just physical; it feels emotional and almost spiritual. No one else has ever matched that same level of chemistry or connection, not even my ex-husband.
Maybe it’s because of my lack of sexual experience or the fact that I’m currently celibate, I haven’t been with anyone in years. But I can’t help but wonder why the attachment still feels so strong after all this time.
Has anyone else experienced something like this? Do you think it’s just brain chemistry, or something deeper ,like unfinished emotional business?