Sorry for this post but the person I talk through things is the problem and I'm lost and confused.
My wife(43f) and I(45m) have been married 14 almost 15 years and together for 19. I had a suspicion of her while dating and really hated a male friend of hers to the point I asked her not to invite him to our wedding. Eventually she talked me into the fact I was a jealous fiancé and I agreed to let him come with his wife and that was the end of it.
Fast forward to tonight 15 years later and she just admitted she cheated on me with him. I'm fucked up about it badly, we have three children (13m, 11f, 7f). She admitted that it was multiple times with this bastard in my home, and still made sure he was at our WEDDING. She swears that was the only time she has cheated and being the absolute love of my life I believe her.
What do i do now? I'm fucking lost and don't want a broken home for my children but how do I go on?