I just got back from a date with a guy I really clicked with. He asked about the 5 year spree I had where I wasnt dating and asked why that was. I told him its a pretty intense story and gave him the option to say he didnt want to hear it. He said if im fine with sharing then hes fine with listening. I told him it was heavy. He said its fine. So I told him. And then I got into what happened after I didnt date for 5 years and you guessed it, more bad shit happened to me. I could tell it bugged him. I didnt bring it up again and I thought the date went well but I could tell he was a bit checked out. He texted me afterwards saying it was nice to meet me but he sees us being better as friends 💀🔫. I politely said no to being friends and it ended there. Idk i just feel like a clown 🤡🤡 I didnt mean to trauma dump but I fear once I started I didnt stop myself. Im sure he was just asking out of curiosity, how was he supposed to know my life has been comically shitty. Fucking suuucckkkss.