i’m 17. dropped out of highschool, not doing anything atm but looking into a traineeship. ive had short term jobs in the past but i really dont want a job. i have alot of anxiety and social anxiety especially regarding things like school and work. i dreaded going to work everyday, although when i first started it was heaps of fun and i found myself getting out of my comfort zone and actually talking to customers confidently, but at some point i regressed back to how i used to be, losing my confidence after consistently getting in trouble over small things. i have a problem spending so much money on things that dont really matter (like collecting kpop cards/albums or anime figures/merch) ive been spending the money ive saved up from my job, but now i have no job once my money runs out ill have nothing. im also procrastinating really badly things like sending in my resume, or even writing a resume, i dreaded the thought of doing any interview or talking to someone im unfamiliar with. im also procrastinating doing my learners, all my friends who are younger than me have started driving and i havent even opened the website yet and im almost 18. i also struggle with my mental health and have an autoimmune disorder which affects my day to day life but its all manageable i just let it affect me way more than i should. i just feel so behind in everything. i also feel so sad missing out on graduation, formal, seeing my friends everyday, but them still getting to see each other. i miss just being in class with them. im not really sure what to do or how to start living my life or where to go for help or how to even properly explain how im feeling or whats going on in my mind. i want to have money, some sort of education so i can get a job and survive in this world, get my learners and be able to drive even tho the thought of being behind a wheel terrifys me. so sorry im kind of just ranting and getting stuff off my chest at this point this is my first reddit post sorry for oversharing . i hope this makes sense and if anyone has any advice at all id appreciate so much 💓