Im not sure if im being used to fulfill someones emotional needs.
I met this person a year ago.
She has the same sense of humour as i, and she always made me smile.
(Edit: which had never happened before)
We worked at a cancer hospital, so things had always been stressful and draining.
When i met her first, i came to know she was dating a footballer and they had this long distance thing going.
I am a really shy person, so i kept my distance at first.
Just small talk.
Seeing that she was very open with me i decided to talk with her more.
(Edit: Even the small talk, those few words brightened up my day)
She decides one day to tell me that he was her ex and she never got the time to take down those posts i saw online about them.
I felt a little more comfortable talking with her.
I completely open up to her and eventually fall for her.
Months later she randomly decides to reveal that they are still dating and are in an 8 year long relationship.
This was over a phone call.
This was a lie on the ground and re-think my life moment.
I threw myself fully into my work and random hobbies.
Just when i had completely got over this whole thing, a month ago she again says that she needs a guy and she is single.
Again, like an idiot i treat her like shes the only person in the world.
I give her a birthday i wish i had and make her feel really really special every single day.
Life is great again.
Then today she tells me: that her ‘guy’ should be more like me.
I cant anymore, i dont think i ever felt this exhausted before.
Keep in mind I exercise like 3 to 4 hours a day, but this is something else.
I dont know what to do.
TL;DR: My last one year has been a rollercoaster of a time with someone who isnt clear about her relationship status with someone who appears to be emotionally distant and needs me to fulfill those needs.