I am tired of competitive people. Sure, competition can be healthy sometimes, but it's not for me. I hate having my peace interrupted by people who just feel the need they have to be better than me. We're different people, why do you always feel like we have to compete for a spot?
I literally lost my best friend because she couldnt accept that I ranked higher than her in academics. From then on, she would closely monitor my scores, which ended our friendship because it became really toxic.
My cousin and I both shared a hobby, art. I was the first one delve in it. I shared my hobby to her, and she followed suit. But here comes college. I wasn't allowed to take an art degree, but my cousin was. I did have my regrets but I felt like I still wanted to be in a course that would challenge me academically, so all was good. Unfortunately, she started becoming really competitive. She keeps implying that "I only introduced her to art" but right now, it's HER FIELD. I'm like.. I dont care what you do, it's a hobby. She would laugh whenever she sees me sketching and that kinda made me hate being around her. She often whines to me how depressing it is that other people in her class are better than her because she wants to be the best.
In college, I made a friend. She was probably the smartest in our block. I seek her help from time to time, and she seeks mine but rarely. I'd say I'm pretty average here. The class was filled with smart people. I did notice that whenever I got a higher score, she would get really aggressive with me. I started feeling unwanted animosity between us two. I unfortunately grew apart with her because I couldnt stand people who dont know how to deal with other people being better than them sometimes.
Another cousin of mine would claim that she "idolised me" because I got awards when I graduated a from a certain track in high school. Aside from copying every single thing that I do, she would tell me that she felt like she "couldn't compare to me," but keeps trying whatever it is that I do. I just hate it when people do this. It feels like I'm being treated as a finish line.
Why do you feel the need to compare yourself to me? I'm just an insignificant human, and so is everyone else. If anything else, the standard should be yourself and not other people.
I just dont think I can continue being around these people. I dont know how to deal with them, or what to say to them.