Hi loves! I really need some advice because my anxiety is ruining my life.
I always end up liking people who soon turn their attention to someone else, and it makes me so insecure. It feels like I'm stuck in situationships where l'm emotionally invested, but they're not and that hurts a lot.
My first relationship ended really badly, and ever since then l've been carrying that trauma. I have dumped by someone on the day I got first interaction .
I know what I am constantly going through is not real love, because the right person wouldn't make me feel this way.
I'm very monogamous, and honestly, social media makes it worse. The guys I start bonding with keep adding new girls every day, and I end up comparing myself to them and feeling like l'm not enough.
I take care of myself and try to look my best, but mentally I get really anxious and jealous. I start overthinking everything and acting in ways I don't like. I know I can't expect loyalty or commitment from someone who isn't even my partner, but my emotions get the best of me. I start to act passive aggressive and jealous towards them and ruining everything.
I don't want to keep being like this. l've already spent too much time comparing myself and blaming myself over someone who once dumped me. If anyone's been through this and found a way to heal, please share l'd really appreciate it.