My (34F) Husband (36M) (together for 4.5 years, married for 2 years) follows a lot of sexy women on twitch, discord, etc. I feel like I am jealous over things I couldn’t control.
Recently found his porn stash.
He communicates through discord sharing friendly nudes*** (edit: porn vids/gifs) to friends.
Recently (6mons ago) found out he reached out to his ex on discord(although no response from the girl- unless she responded somewhere else through a different platform).
Seems like i know my husband’s whereabouts 24/7. We have a newborn. Don’t think he physically has any external affairs.
I know I have been snooping around his stuff, but, whatever I have seen, I just cannot get over.
I feel like the trust has been broken.
Especially when he attempted to communicate with the ex.
We have talked about this issue and reconciled, but I just keep finding new stuff (like followed another sexy woman twitch) and although there is change from him (ie frequency and number of followage)I find he keeps coming back to it.
PS: he also started on testostorone therapy stating he wanted to improve his body dysmorphia. So he is gaining a lotta muscle and looking a lot more in the mirror. 🙁
Ha. Perhaps it is my hormones. But help me trust him again.