Hello, it’s almost a month of marriage and honestly, I’m having a lot of ups and downs with my partner. The love is still there, but I guess I just thought life would be different with this big step that we both took. I’ve been crying a lot more than usual, and whenever I try to explain it to him, he just doesn’t seem to care about it or about me. I feel overwhelmed and don’t know what to do with this.
I don’t know how to just not care, because in my mind I see this as a long-term partnership. But it just seems like it’s only me. He still acts like a kid and always makes it seem like I’m at fault. He never takes accountability when he makes me feel bad. Somehow, I always end up feeling like I’m asking for too much or wanting too much, when I really don’t think I am.
I ask him to be more understanding and supportive, because I feel like I need it. I always try to act like I’m okay, but I don’t want to pretend anymore. Also, we are long distance for now until next year, and he keeps telling me that in person it will be different. Honestly, I don’t know if I should believe that, or if this is all I will get for the rest of my life.
I don’t want a divorce. I always thought the person I would marry would be my only one in everything, and I thought things would be different. But I guess I am just disappointed in how things are turning out. I just want him to actually show his love for me and give me support. I really don’t ask for much.
We already have plans to see each other this month, but I don’t want to only feel okay for the days I’m there and then leave, only to have everything go back to the way it is now, please any advice is taken I don’t know if this is something normal I don’t know, maybe I’m not the only one going through something like this, thank you.