It's just gone 16:00 and I've spent the entire day pretty much scrolling through Reddit and YouTube, staring into space and a bunch of other stuff that isn't productive. I'm a Partnership Manager and my job pays well, is close to home and I'll be an idiot to lose it but I just can't motivate myself to do anything.
I like managing partners, striking new deals etc. but so much of the role is admin heavy and it really demotivates me. I'll have a list of important things to do but if one thing goes slightly wrong (like a system breaking yet again) then I just get demotivated for the rest of the day. I won't even do the easy things and pretty much just respond if someone has messaged me directly.
Why I'm posting here is because it's gotten so far to a real weird place. Like, I literally can't concentrate for 5 minutes to complete a task. Even though I know it's a small one, that'll I'll probably end up losing my job etc. I just can't pick myself to do it.