21m I am just a regular man trying to go along with life. I am working on a book while trying to a job for my accounting degree, I like fantasy novels and orchestral music and film essays on YouTube.
Despite all this dating is something that I don’t think I am capable of understanding, no woman I have interacted with has ever wanted something like that. I dress well enough and clean and polite but I just don’t connect with people.
I don’t understand anything I hear about dating. I hear men say women have it easy I hear women say men are all toxic. I don’t know where any of this comes from. I just want to feel a romantic connection with an incredible soul.
The advice I hear is how I need to make huge changes to my personality and be more dominant or need to dress differently so people will be nicer. I don’t know if this is right but I don’t see why I should change so much even though I’m not doing anything bad or wrong its just different to everyone else.
The main problem is that its wearing me down to see so many people in happy relationships and I see so many people dating and the women I know have been so many relationships that it does make me doubt myself and I begin to wonder if I continue being me will I die alone. The loneliness is taking me. It seems to me that dating is for one kind of person and I am not one of them. I know the person reading this will say “just wait someone will come along” but will they? Or how long must I wait?