It was only two dates. That’s nothing! That’s barely even an introduction!
But I was so into her, and I really felt like it had potential. I found everything about her so interesting and engaging, and I feel I was able to match that energy fairly well.
Date ended with a kiss, maybe multiple, and that was it. I felt confident a third would follow.
Instead, few days later I got a “it’s not you, it’s me” message. And that was it.
So of course I’m overthinking everything, analyzing where I went wrong. Did I not say enough?? Was I boring?? Was the kiss actually awful??
I feel like I fumbled something that could’ve been really special, somebody that I was so excited about. Simply by not being good enough at dating. By not being (adjective) enough, whatever that blank may actually be.
And now I’m mourning a connection that never really got to exist. It’s like a breakup but I don’t even feel qualified to be upset. But here I am, wondering if I’ll find anybody that excites me like that again.
Dating is stupid!