Both 33, married 10 years, together for 15 years.
My husband worships me. Literally would follow me and kiss the ground after each step if I let him. He’d lay his jacket in a puddle for me to step on so my shoes wouldn’t dirty if I so needed. It’s very genuine, very lovely, and I love him deeply. (Don’t get me wrong, we still bicker about silly stuff, but at the end of the day, I feel VERY taken care of.)
Anyways, we’ve been feeling very into each other lately. Like for the past few months, we’ve been having sex more than two times a day. I am a SAHM and he wfh.
Our interests in sex generally align. A lot of it skews towards what he wants, but I feel like a lot of my desire has adapted to this. For example, he introduced me to anal early in our relationship, I previously found it WAY taboo or gross. But like, he worships my booty and makes me feel so special and unique and attractive that now, wiggling my butt in his face is a major turn on for ME.
He’s been slowly suggesting more and more emasculating, degrading, or femme kind of stuff for me to do to him. He’s VERY shy about it. It’s….harder for me to find myself interested in this. Or like…it’s hard for me to figure out how to include my pleasure in these scenes when seeing him as a sissy or emasculated is NOT hot to me. But at the same time, me participating in these kinks makes him worship me or drool over me even MORE? Which I love? I just don’t love what I have to do to get that.
I guess a part of me is worried at my own lack of interest here. Is this our sex life diverging? What if I can’t satisfy this kink for him? I know I should ask HIM that question but I’m very worried that by showing disinterest in what turns him on, he will feel shame or negative feelings and he will not feel as safe sharing with me. Should I just go along with it and hope it’s a passing phase? I don’t want anal to be a passing phase, so how can I hope that this sissy interest is passing too, you know??
Help!