So I've been with my boyfriend for almost five months now and hes the first guy I've been with. At first when wed sleep together I didnt feel any pleasure from it for about two or 3 weeks. I would feel so much pressure everytime he would thrust into me and it was uncomfortable and almost hurt. And there were times where it would hurt. Now I actually do feel pleasure from it but only in certain positions. Yesterday we slept together and at first I was riding him and it felt nice, he wanted to get on top so I let him, and he was harder than usual and I could feel him hit the end of my stomach if that makes sense, it felt different than usual. And it was uncomfortable and almost hurt so I adjusted so it would be more comfortable for me. But i didn't feel any pleasure from it which was weird because I have been for some time now. I tried to get back on top again and even though it was nice when I did it before I felt nothing when I rode him the second time. He then literally tried pounding into me and I still didnt feel anything but discomfort. He stopped and seemed annoyed by it. This isnt the first time where I've had trouble feeling good from him, and he seems to take it very personal and not even want to have sex anymore because I can't feel it sometimes. He says he doesnt want to if hes the only one getting off. I wasnt taking it personally at first, but its starting to make me feel bad and like something is wrong with me. Ive heard that most of women dont get off from penetration and that it could be from depression, or relationship problems or whatever else, but im not sure. For now though, I've suggested we spend more time on foreplay and letting it build up rather than jump into it, I thought maybe it could be the lack of emotion. Im not sure why it felt so different or not good the most recent time though, even though we did positions it is pleasurable for me in.
Sorry for the long post, but I'd appreciate some advice or some outside knowledge that could potentially help me, ty