I was in love with her for years but haven't actually seen in a long time. She knew I liked her before when she was in a shit relationship, or even after they broke up. At the time, I was too afraid to tell her how I truly felt when she asked what I liked about her as I had a lot of mental health issues and we decided to just leave it there whilst keeping in contact. However, deep down I knew I loved her but didn't want to burden her especially after she said she couldn't return the feelings. I did try pursuing other girls, and other girls showed interests in me but I didnt want to force myself to date girls I wasn't interested in.
She got herself another boyfriend which I was happy for her, but I couldn't help myself asking her recently what would've happened if I had been more honest back then with how I felt. Of course, I realized too late this was probably inappropriate to even ask, maybe I was just being emotional but we ended the convo the same way before. Except recently, we ended our friendship for good, as she was upset I didn't visit her booth showcasing her work when I told her I was at the area but I went to my friend's booth instead for 4 hours. I will admit to being extremely confused why this was a big deal and she said it makes the whole things weirder after all those questions I asked her. I don't think I owed her any of that attention, plus, given she's in a relationship, I did not want to make her feel uneasy with me around. She said stuff like "you want to respect my relationship, but you were alr being disrespectful when you asked those questions" which DID NOT come out before. The whole thing spiraled and took WEEKS to resolve and she ended it saying our friendship was no longer platonic both ways anymore, basically wanting a less than platonic friendship, strangers basically. Can someone explain to me why this mattered to her at all?