EDIT: folks please stop sending me creepy personal messages. I'm asking for actual help here, read the room.
Coming to Reddit as I can't seem to find the resources I need via google!
I've hit a sexual slump. At 30 years old, my brain has decided that *now* is the right time to become ashamed of everything to do with sex, including my own body.
In my late 20s I was having great sex and felt confident, so why has my confidence decided to shatter itself for no apparent reason?
Nobody has ever complained about the way my body looks, but suddenly I can't bear the thought of being naked in front of someone. Nobody has ever suggested that I was 'bad' at a sex act, but suddenly I'm getting feelings of deep humiliation at the memory of past sexual experiences (which weren't actually humiliating). Thinking of myself as being a sexual human being makes me cringe and I can barely even type the words 'vulva' or 'cum' without wanting to censor them with asterisks!
I don't understand where this sudden prudishness has come from – a couple of years ago I was being thrown around, choked out, degraded and having the best time doing it. What happened?
Has anyone been through this, or can anyone recommend resources I can check out to get my confidence and sex-positivity back?
**BTW Talking therapy is an absolute no-go for me on this particular topic**