My boyfriend and I have been together for a year and 3 months, and as of recently, things have been great. We have gotten a lot better at communication, with fights here and there.
I'd like to preface this story with a few details.
1. At the point we broke up, we had been dating 10 months and I did not ever think I'd be getting back with him. I am also not someone who sleeps around, this is my first serious boyfriend outside of casual dating and talking stages.
2. I had also recently found out he had been texting his ex.
3. There are problems outside of this that I'd be happy to address in an update or comments.
Okay, here we go.
I was graduating high school in a few weeks by this point (held back a grade) and I had been feeling him distance himself from me, so of course I tried to communicate, to no avail, and by the time he was communicating back, I was pretty uninterested. He goes through these periods where he's mad at everyone, he says it's not about me, but it makes it feel like I cannot talk to him.
So, the weekend before my grad he backed out of being my date and I broke up with him. I was not planning on talking to him.
So I have a friend (18 M, trans (this does have to do with the story, you'll see why), who pretty much immediately after I broke up with the bf, told me he liked me. I was fine with this and even flirted back a bit. He invited me over to his house but the first time I said no, because " I don't want to make any rash decisions I will regret later. "
I ended up coming over the next weekend, and as probably my 7th mistake at this point, smoked some 🌿 and drank a little. My friend started making moves on me, and I don't really remember how, but it escalated. After that, it was cut off pretty immediately as life was too complicated for me.
A few weeks later, I got back with my bf, but I have never told him because I know he would break up with me if I did. I think I have some attachment issues, and I really feel guilty about what I did, even though technically it isn't wrong.
TLDR; I broke up with my bf and then slept with someone while high and tipsy and feel awful about it because I have not told him.