I’m in a 5 year relationship with my girlfriend We have 2 kids together. She has 1 of her own I’m stepping up as a father figure to her. I don’t know if it’s me or her. I pay all the bills I don’t drink I don’t smoke I don’t go out I do go to the gym and I don’t cheat never had. She works from home I work as a Hazmat Driver. Get up at 12:00am Clock in at 1:00am 12Hr shifts. Long story short idk if I’m dealing with a narcissist. I feel like I can’t express my feelings as a man to her because I feel like it doesn’t matter to her and she’s judged me before and used it against me in the past. When we argue it’s like I can’t communicate with her because she shuts down everything for me. I can’t explain myself. She faults me for everything in the house and when I try to tell her the truth I can’t even start my explanation without her saying “Hmm yea sure play victim” I’m a mellow guy hardly get angry but she’s pushed me to the edge of my patience before to the point where I yelled at her and said some disrespectful words she brought out something in me that I never seen before. She’s told me before “Learn how to be a man”. That day I had Driven for 14 hours 30 min labor work as a hazmat driver came home tired asf Knowing the next day I had another long drive. Her character is really strong I feel like when she speaks to me she sees me as an enemy. I don’t know if it’s because her pass relationship that was harsh and I’m the one dealing with that grudge of hers. I feel like I’m walking on egg shells with this women. I’ve felt disrespected in public before. She’s called me dumb out loud in public for something I didn’t do. Any opinions?