I'll begin my post with ages i'm 20M and she is 31F and we are brides for seven months and we good friends and in love for months before that.
In the beggining she was pretty sweat just depresssive. Probably she is borderline or has bipolarity i don't really know.
But when her and her two kids moved with me, she started drinking a lot to the point of getting halucinations and also beating me three diferent times.
The last time she punched me several times in my face and i have it recorded.
She says i don't help her and don't look for better conditions for us to live.
But she made me waste all my economy on futile things.
I really want her to change and love the kids a lot, but the weight of she doing bad things is making me get super depressed.
She also tried to kill herself in front of me one time and the kids were at home, and they noticed, it was very traumatic because they noticed but didn't want to look. The kids are a autistic 10M and a energetic 8F.
My bride also wanted to get pregnant and we tried before she got bad this way.
Now i don't really know if she is pregnant but she said one time while drinking that she'll move alone with the kids and that if she is pregnant she'll go to the justice if we don't stay together to get the guard of our kid.
If we don't stay together i still have my video and will try the better i can to have my kid with me.
I really wanted to vent, this is a weight i've been carrying for a long time.
We tried to leave each other but we can't, we still love esch other even with our relationship being so toxic.
I live in Brazil but i'm so scared of posting this in my country's subreddits and she discovering that i posted here.
Please help, what would you all do? 🙁