i've (26F) never been in a relationship before, never went on dates etc. and at this point, this feels like a humiliation ritual.
it feels like it must be that i'm either hideous or something is completely wrong with me as i have never been pursued outside of dating apps, but again, people there swipre anyone to increase their chances, it's not real attraction. i grew up in a kinda restrictive family and i was also overweight so as a result i was also depressed and lacked the confidence so it makes sense that i wasn't pursued. and i guess i'm not even that attracted to men as i had feelings for only 2-3 of them as of yet.
i think i should be somewhat ok by now (not great, but ok) but as i missed out on a fundemental part of the human experience and rarely ever get to meet new people. A good part of my peers have already settled, uni is over, i do my master's but there is barely any people in my classes, my hobbies aren't that popular among men. and don't even mention work as i thought my supervisor at work liked me but turned out he had a whole relationship and i'm resigning anyways but it's unlikely that i'll get any new jobs soon etc.
it just seems impossible to me at this point and i can't self-love myelf out of this. like, i know that i'm a valuable human being despite this but i want to experience love, too. how do people, who have zero experience, date after a certain point in life?