alright guys, need some perspective here because i'm starting to think i'm losing my mind. i'm 34, make decent money (low six figures), got promoted to senior manager last year, people respect my work, blah blah blah. everything looks great. everyone keeps telling me how lucky i am and how they wish they had my job. but i fucking hate it. not in a dramatic way, just… it feels like wearing shoes that are the wrong size. i can walk in them but it hurts the whole time.
i'm not failing at anything. meeting all my targets, team likes me, boss thinks i'm doing great. but i wake up most mornings with this sense of dread about going in. not anxiety exactly, just this heavy feeling like "oh god, another day of this shit." the worst part is i don't even know what i'd rather be doing instead. i just know this ain't it.
anyone else been through something like this? do you just suck it up and grind through because it pays the bills? or is there actually a way to find work that doesn't feel like slow-motion torture?