I'm not socially awkward, I can go up to anyone and instantly learn everything about them since I put them at ease.
However when I watch myself in videos, I cringe, because my whole demeanor is REPULSIVE to me.
I smiling a ton, constantly fidgeting and I hate how I look. In my mind I convince myself I'm confident and cool.
But on the surface everyone can tell what I'm feeling and they don't respect me or take me seriously.
I want to learn how to be more composed, any tips?