tl;dr- i am in a bit of a complex relationship and i’m not entirely sure how to handle it.
so me (f 22) and my bf (m 22) have been together for just over two years and it’s not been the easiest relationship. he’s lied about a few things, not recently though. he cheated on me last year, although he’s not done it since but whilst i can accept all of that and move on, i’m finding myself increasingly frustrated and, honestly, unfulfilled. he’s been unemployed for about half of our relationship, in and out of jobs and so i’ve paid for 80% of everything. he’ll sometimes shut me out or cancel last minute, if he even responds knowing we’ve got plans. when things are good they’re so good and it feels like the best relationship i’ve ever been in but then sometimes i feel like i don’t mean much to him. i absolutely love him and we’ve got so much in common
but i feel like there’s something wrong considering i can’t fully commit myself to him anymore. i’m not a perfect person and i don’t expect a perfect boyfriend but sometimes it feels like the negatives outweighs the positives. i don’t know if crazing some space since i’m young is the right decision or if he’s the person i’m supposed to be with and i’ll never have a connection like this with anyone else again