I was in a two year relationship that ended at the beginning of August. There was no goodbye or final discussion, he said, “I’m officially over this relationship, come get your shit.” All I did was say ok. It wasn’t the first time he’d said those same words, and we always walked it back each time before it. But the last time, I just said ok and then blocked him.
I went a whole month where my emotions were regulating and I felt good. I wasn’t dating or looking for someone. But then I remembered someone had reached out to me a couples of times when I was dating my now ex. I wondered how they were doing. And we talked and he gassed me up. I felt a certain type of way and then he ghosted me and I over extended and told him my feelings- which he blocked me. That was when everything hit me like brick wall.
After being ghosted and blocked, I went on a dating app. I connected with someone and he was awesome. We had a lot in common. He seemed like a genuine person. Our energy matched- we were intimate- and I caught feelings hard. We talked about linking back up. And then this guy pulled away. We didn’t end on bad terms, but I wasn’t going to chase him. In my mind, he found a better opportunity or person so why chase him.
I guess- the three bad circumstances have gotten to me. I was so content and in a good place and then this shit happened with two people after my ex… I feel lost. I just want to go back to not caring and healing. I don’t even want date anymore. People are only out for themselves, when there are genuine people like myself who want to find their soulmate. 🤷🏻♀️