For some context , me and my husband was only together for about 6 months and stupidly eloped on a whim, we both wasnt mentally the best and we kinda wasn't even in love at the time we was just so emotional drained and didn't want to ever be alone and idk.. The day got ruined, he yelled the whole day at me and honestly ruined the whole thing.
We have both gotten better mentally and he regrets everything he did but time has got past us and we're really struggling being together because of my regret of getting married and missing out on everything I wanted. This sounds so stupid but I just want to go back to dating him.. I just want to actually take things slow and he does too he wants to actually propose and have a real little wedding but I literally don't know how you explain that to friends and family… He wants to "date" and be "boy and girlfriend" and in a couple years "propose" and getting "married" (like an actual wedding not just a "vow renewal" cause it would be in the next coming year or so) . I can't come to terms with it cause in the back of my mind it feels stupid. My name is already changed.. What would I even tell family and friends? No one in my family likes him either cause of how he treated me when me and him wasn't in a good place mentally but we're genuinely changed and become more adult in our ways, and I just dont know what to do in this.