Genuinely don’t know how I’m gonna find anyone at this point. Any advice?

24M, virgin, never dated anyone, always the guy to be seen as the friend who’s nice to have around, never desired for actual sex or romance… So I stopped trying for a bit. But now ive done the work, im ready to meet someone and start building a life together. Im getting scared that I’ll never meet someone though. It’s not even like im activeky dating and just cant find the right one. It’s that I cant find anyone at all.

Some context. Growing up, I was the weird kid at school, choosing video games and my weird obsession with science over actual social interaction. I was bullied for this which didnt help my self esteem. I was also abused at home by both parents and my sister, who learned early on that siding with them against me maintains her golden child status. So, self esteem wasnt even in my vocabulary growing up. Therefore, no social circle and no self esteem means I missed all the learning milestones of dating.

That means I never had sex, never dated anyone (except by accident for a month in grade 11 but neither of us were into it and I was inexperienced so i dont really count it). Ive kissed only 2 women, apparently im a good kisser (idk what that means but ill take the compliment) and one of those kisses was a woman who violated my boundaries sexually (she was drunk, I wasnt, I kept saying no, stop, i dont want this, she kept persisting and crossing more and more lines… Anyways, I wouldnt take advantage of someone just because I still have my V card)

Had a few dates with this one girl who I knew for a few years when I was in my late teens, asked her to be my prom date, she said yes, and then I moved too quick by confessing my feelings and she got mad at me for that. She texted me a couple years later saying “my parents arent home wanna do something?” And my dumbass missed the hint and we ended up going to a car show🤦🏻‍♂️, we talked for hours after in a mcdonalds parking lot though, and then I saw her again a couple years after that. She was happy to see me, I was happy to see her and we got together again and had fun but I never escalated any of those times because of how mad she got when I expressed my feelings, I figured she only wanted to hang out with an old friend.

Thats all I have in terms of experience. At 24, this is not where I wanted to be.

Anyways, now, im older, lonelier, and starting to get colder. I wanna make it clear that I reject the incel and redpill bullshit and I dont think my trouble finding someone is due to an inability to attract nor is it a problem with women. I think it’s purely circumstantial now. I missed the milestones and im worried about being so awkward that it’s a turn off or worse, a red flag, and the way my life is now, without getting into detail, the chances of me meeting someone is practically zero. Thats not pessimism, thats logical analysis of what im going through.

Ive done the work, ive done the therapy, ive cut off my parents and sister (for the most part) and ive learned my value as a man. Confidence is not the issue, circumstances are. I dont even have channels like work to meet people through because im a startup founder

So, all that being said, any advice on how someone like me can meet someone? Because if not, I swear I’m switching to AI😂

Tl,dr: im worried I cant find someone because im extremely inexperienced in dating, my circle is tiny and I dont have the normal channels others have to meet women, like work, school, etc. it’s not a confidence issue, it’s an “I dont know anyone” issue, and its starting to drive me insane with every love song I listen to… Help!