I just kept planning and fantasizing over the years.
Hm, I had to sit back and identify my values. Still trying not to be afraid to explore new things. Trying to find people or someone I can do that in my life. A new journey.
Honestly, choosing to stay single. I’m 29 and I’ve never felt so confident and sure of what I like and dislike, what brings me happiness and peace.
Having simple needs, like the desire for a good book.
I asked myself this question when I was in my 20s. Everyone seemed to be aiming and fulfilling their dream job, house or holiday.
I started off writing what I DID NOT WANT which helped me.
I wanted to be a mom and a Jill of all trades. Then cancer took the chance of being a mom. So now I’m just existing in a world I can’t really figure out what my purpose is. Depressing I know. Such life has been for 7 months. Yay me.
I just want peace, it doesn’t matter where i live what i earn, I only yearn for peace. I found this out pretty recently 😂
Seeing if thinking about it and fantasizing about me in such a role makes me happy or not
I desire a lot of things but if I think philosophically then companionship… whether friendly or romantic, or community. I think of it like in the case of a natural disaster, I have faith that my friends and community will help each other out. It’s a neat thing to relate to someone else or be with like-minded people
After experiencing many struggles that really stressed me out, I figured out that I want a stable job that won’t ruined my peace of mind, but at the same time has a decent pay.
How? Trial and error.
I’m keenly aware of what I dislike. So I avoid it. What’s left is the things I do enjoy.
Now that I’m about to reach age 30, I figured out I want to do business. To gain money is another thing, but it keeps me busy and I just like the thought of it.
I don’t think I’ve figured it out yet. I noticed I desire a lot less the older I get. I focused less on wants and more on my needs during my mid 20s to 30s. In some ways doing that has been better and in other aspects I’d say it’s worse. I am still focused on my means of long-term survival.
Experiencing things. Filtering through what I think I’m supposed to want, and finding what I actually do. I just want peace and stability. I want to never lose my inner child while healing her. I want to allow love into my life without forcing it. And I want to settle into who I am without worrying what others think.
Time
I think it starts with figuring out what I *don’t* want.
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Never truly did.
by noticing what drained vs. what fulfilled me
I just kept planning and fantasizing over the years.
Hm, I had to sit back and identify my values. Still trying not to be afraid to explore new things. Trying to find people or someone I can do that in my life. A new journey.
Honestly, choosing to stay single. I’m 29 and I’ve never felt so confident and sure of what I like and dislike, what brings me happiness and peace.
Having simple needs, like the desire for a good book.
I asked myself this question when I was in my 20s. Everyone seemed to be aiming and fulfilling their dream job, house or holiday.
I started off writing what I DID NOT WANT which helped me.
I wanted to be a mom and a Jill of all trades. Then cancer took the chance of being a mom. So now I’m just existing in a world I can’t really figure out what my purpose is. Depressing I know. Such life has been for 7 months. Yay me.
I just want peace, it doesn’t matter where i live what i earn, I only yearn for peace. I found this out pretty recently 😂
Seeing if thinking about it and fantasizing about me in such a role makes me happy or not
I desire a lot of things but if I think philosophically then companionship… whether friendly or romantic, or community. I think of it like in the case of a natural disaster, I have faith that my friends and community will help each other out. It’s a neat thing to relate to someone else or be with like-minded people
After experiencing many struggles that really stressed me out, I figured out that I want a stable job that won’t ruined my peace of mind, but at the same time has a decent pay.
How? Trial and error.
I’m keenly aware of what I dislike. So I avoid it. What’s left is the things I do enjoy.
Now that I’m about to reach age 30, I figured out I want to do business. To gain money is another thing, but it keeps me busy and I just like the thought of it.
I don’t think I’ve figured it out yet. I noticed I desire a lot less the older I get. I focused less on wants and more on my needs during my mid 20s to 30s. In some ways doing that has been better and in other aspects I’d say it’s worse. I am still focused on my means of long-term survival.
Experiencing things. Filtering through what I think I’m supposed to want, and finding what I actually do. I just want peace and stability. I want to never lose my inner child while healing her. I want to allow love into my life without forcing it. And I want to settle into who I am without worrying what others think.
Time
I think it starts with figuring out what I *don’t* want.