I (21M) met the person who I thought was the love of my life at uni (21FTM). We were together for almost 3 years, and in that time everything felt so perfect. We did so much together and it just felt like we clicked, shared the same values and we had so much planned for the future together. Over the last few months, he started getting more distant and also started acting kinda weird with a coworker (F), shutting himeself in other rooms to talk to her and acting really weird when I would walk into the room. I bought it up and he said that he was starting to feel like he was falling out of love with me, but insisted the coworker was just a really good friend. We sat down and tried to break everything down and then things seemed better for a few weeks. I tried my hardest and put all of my effort in to make it work, and last week he confessed to me that he had stayed at her house and slept with her while I was away. We have just gotten a flat together and I am now unsure where to go, what to do. I just feel totally crushed and I hate him but I still love him and it just feels like nothing will get better. I am planning on moving back into the area to finish uni ( I have gone to my parents’ for 2 weeks to clear my head and try and figure things out) but I’m so anxious and stressed at the idea of having to find an entirely new place to live, and I just miss it so much and can’t fathom what went wrong. He told me none of this was my fault and he feels remorseful but I somehow still feel like it is my fault. Idk what to do next, will I ever find love again? I just feel so hopeless and don’t know what to do now, or where to go.
tl;dr – split with partner of 3 years and unsure where to go next as it has flipped my entire life upside down