Roommate situation

I just moved in with new roommates, and my anxiety has been through the roof. I’ve always struggled with social anxiety (and maybe even avoidant personality traits), but this situation is hitting me harder than usual.

The issue isn’t that I want to be close with them — honestly, I don’t really feel the need to hang out or be best friends. But over the past few days, the three of them have gotten really close, and watching that has been making me feel uneasy and full of dread. It’s like I’m automatically the “outsider” now, and I keep having intrusive thoughts that at some point they’ll start singling me out or making fun of me behind my back.

To make it worse, I thought I overheard one roommate ask another if I was “chill,” and the reply was “he’s okay.” I know that sounds harmless, but it absolutely broke me. My brain instantly turned it into, “They don’t like me, they think I’m weird,” and I’ve been spiraling ever since.

Logically, I know I might just be reading too much into it, but the dread I feel is almost unbearable. I get jealous when I see them laughing together, even though I don’t actually want to join in. It’s less about wanting to be included and more about being terrified of becoming the black sheep.

Has anyone else felt this way with roommates or groups before? If anyone has any tips for how to overcome this that would be great too