I just started university and in my country you have a lot of ”out of school” activities with your class planned out by your ”fathers” aka older stundens. I knew I needed to make sure to show up and really make an effort to challenge myself and talk to everyone, you know try and make an impression.
It feels like I succeeded and people know who I am and are aware of me, it felt really good but now I’m trying to get closer to the ones who I thought were similar to myself.
Problem is, it feels like they don’t want to make close friends? I am always the one asking the questions and making sure the conversations keep going. It’s exhausting. It’s like everything is so natural to everyone else, like they aren’t deathly worried about ending up alone with no friends. I don’t get it. Am I being to pushy and they think I’m weird or do people just not talk like this? I thought that when you get to know people you ask questions and try and find familiarity and fun stories.
At this point I’m almost never enjoying myself at the parties because I’m so focused on making the conversations work. I can literally be talking to someone for an hour and then they walk right past me later without even a look like they just forgot about me.
It feels hopeless. I do everything people say to do and all that’s left is wait and see, which feels horrible. What do I do? 🙁