I 35f have been in a noncommital relationship with jack 34m for 2 years now. Long story short, I have an anxious attachment style and him avoidant. I was secure in the beginning but he kept triggering old trauma wounds even though I kept telling him what was triggering me.
He had his dogs at my place until we had a blow out fight and he took them home at my request. That was in June. He didnt want to visit or claimed he couldnt because he was either not comfortable or didnt have a sitter. I used to take him lunch or breakfast but this soon ended as well with him telling me his coworkers were suddenly feeding him.
Last month he was supposed to visit me. He canceled after meet time and rescheduled for next day. Next day he canceled as well. The third day I asked if he'd be available. He said I needed to stop putting pressure and I wasn't allowing him to enjoy his time with his son. Fast forward a week and its my birthday. He bought us lunch and was with me for a little. Two days later I find out he lied that entire week. His son was at church camp. He had free time he just didnt want to see me.
Ever since I called him out on his lies hes been avoiding me telling me he needs space. I told him if he didnt want to talk anymore to juat block me because my love for him clouds my judgement. He said he just needed space.
Everyday I have tried calling or texting and get ignored most of ghe time. He says hes not ignoring me he just doesnt keep his phone glued to his hand to respond to me. I told him he changed so much ever since I called out his lies as if I was the one doing the lying. Now hes ignoring me completely but not blocking me.
I sent a lot of messages explaining his actions and how theyve hurt me. Thing is the way i wrote here in paragraphs I wrote in texts so it ended up being a lot. Does this make me psychotic? Am I being delusional?