Not necessarily seeking advice or more so to rant. I'm a very neurodivergent/introverted guy. I've always struggled with socialising in big groups, crowds, and certain individual types ect. I go to this one bar in my town that throws club like nights(no other actual clubs in my area) every Friday an Saturday night. I started going there almost weekly as a result of a bad breakup I had earlier this year, I went to try a new environment and to distract myself. Over time once I got over my breakup I went ahead an started to try socialising around but it feels like I'm always the one putting In the effort an getting very little reciprocation at the same time. I get all these drunk guys giving me silly advice like it'll fix my problem. Which is quite discouraging when I already have self esteem troubles already. Anyhow, I've tired sitting around an never has anyone approached me. So than I tried approaching myself. But everytime they hardly acknowledge me or express interest in building a connection. An everyone who goes there is the same, looks the same, acts the same. Virtually everything there is the same. An a lot of the time the people there just don't match or mix with my vibe at all. Sometimes I tell myself I'm not trying hard enough or just a coward. But even then, it feels like such effort for a simple exchange of words when I'm always the one doing it. Even when I'm there alone I feel very down an like as if I just don't fit in the crowd or environment an sometimes I just want to talk out. What keeps me coming back is the sorta false hope I have that maybe next time I'll be able to strike up a conversation but it's always the same people an the same results. Part of me just wants to completely ditch the club scene and dating in general. I don't want to have to put on a mask an pretend to be someone to attract girls, instead I just want someone who's more into me for who I am. Which feels rare nowadays. Sorry if I'm complaining but I just wanted to share my thoughts an maybe hear yours if anyone can relate to this.